Onika's P.O.V.
I'm here at home, well my new
home now. We moved again because dad was getting abit rowdy again and
mom didn't want that around her. Jelani isn't speaking o me still and it
has been 2 weeks sinds the 'thing'. My mother supports we and tries to
convince me that I asn't ready to have a baby yet. I adhear to all that
nonsense but never let it sink in. I wanted the baby, it as mine. It was
mines to take care of, to love, to feed, and to have. I didn't really
care what Andrew did. Speaking of him, a flashback hit's me right then.
I
walked up to him while he was talking down this Asian whore-looking
chick. She was blushing at whatever it was he was saying to her. He was
working his charms on her. I smirked on inside remembering how I used to
fall as a block for all of that. I tapped his shoulder, and he turned
smiling before looking abit shocked at me.
"Uh.. H-hey"
"Hi Andrew"
"What's up, haven't seen you in a while."
"Oh funny, I’ve been seeing tons of you." I said with anger dripping from my voice.
"Look Onika, I feel that what we had was special. But I’m too young to have kids."
"Yeah
I know, me too. But I would've loved to keep it." I say with a single
tear running down my cheek. I was holding my now flat, empty stomach. He
looked at it, and I see a wash of relief washing over him. "Your
f-cking happy about this aren't you?!? I said with my voice rising.
"No, no. Not at all." he said quickly.
"Babe, I’m hungry. Can we leave?" his, I assume, new girlfriend, says to him, disrupting our
conversation.
"Nah,
just hall your a**, don't you see us talking." I spat at her. She just
watched me shocked before huffing off. Andrew sighed and put his hands
on top his head.
"Listen Onika, we are over. I don't want to see you no more." He says to me. That cut me.
“Yeah
I know nigguh. I just wanted to tell you that your a punk. Your always
running from your problems. I hope that all your future girls have a
womb that produces twins or more!" i yelled at him before walking off.
He jus stood there baffled.
I sighed. I was so stupid to
believe him. I was stupid to kiss and hug him. I was stupid to be seen
with him. And most of all, I was stupid for letting him have all of me,
when he didn't even deserve it at all. I lost my virginity to a dirt
bag. What a waste.
I cried silently once again, I couldn't do this. I rub my stomach thinking that there is still something in there.
"I'm
so sorry... Mommy loves you very much and hope that you are fine." I
whisper to my stomach while rubbing it. My eyes stared to water once
again. This was going to be difficult.
Jelani’s P.O.V.
I’m
so disappointed in my baby sister. I thought she was better than this.
Getting pregnant by one of the biggest players of our area. I could tell
she was out of it lately, but what is a 14-year-old to do with a baby? I
shook my head. She should’ve told me at least. I cried that night after
dad said it at dinner. I could tell she was scared when she realized
what he was talking about. I want to comfort her, but I still want to
just ring her one for doing it in the first place.
I walked into a
quiet house. Mother is at work. She’s a nurse. School’s supposed to
start soon. Nika’s going to LaGuardia. I’m happy for her. My little
sister, an actress. That made me smile. As I’m walking up the stairs, I
could hear my sister crying once again. She’s been in this depressed
state for the past 2 weeks. It always broke my heart to see her sad, so
imagine how I felt about her crying. I sighed. “Why lord?” I ask myself.
I walk up to her door and knock. She doesn’t answer but I still go in.
“Hey…” I say. She just stays in the same position, which is with her face in her pillow and sitting in a corner in her room.
“’Nika,
I’m so sorry.” I say and my voice cracked. I could feel the tears form
in my eyes. She just cried harder. I walk up to her and pick her up,
hugging her as we cried together. She just continued sobbing into my
shirt. She wasn’t herself that was clear to see. Her room was filled
with tissues and her clothes. Her bed was not made, and she just looked
like a hot mess. Her hair was all over the place. Her eyes were almost
swollen shut. She looked paler and even abit skinnier. I was shocked; I
didn’t know it was this bad for her.
“N-nika, please… let’s go eat
something.” I said to her while slowly letting her go. She just flopped
down on her bed with tiny sniffles still sounding. She felt around for
something then just stopped moving. “C’mon, Nika please… for me?”
“N-no…no
I have nothing else to live for. If I can’t have my baby, then I don’t
deserve to live!” she
screamed at me and pulled out a small pocket knife
from under her pillow.
“Nika, don’t do this please.” I said with my hands up in surrender. I didn’t want her to do this.
“No Lani, I let everyone down. I killed my baby. I have nothing.” She sobbed with the knife pointed to herself.
“Nika,
I know. I really do. But look, I’m not angry with you. I know how you
feel. I love you Nika, I don’t want you to do this. I know your hurting,
but please just put the knife down.” I said while I inched towards her.
She just sobbed. I doubt she was even stable. She was shaking. I slowly
took the knife out of her hand. She gave it up without a fight.
“L-lani,
what am I gonna do ?” she says to me. I sighed and looked her deep in
her eyes. I took a moment to formulate my sentence.
“Move on
Nika.” I say to her while cupping her face in my hands. Her eyes
widened. Her tears stopped. “Besides, you look like the wife of
frankenstein.” I said grinning. She cracked a small smile while moving
the hair out her face.
“Whatever, you doof.” She said then threw a
pillow at me. It missed me by a meter. I laughed and she did too. We
wrestled for a while before cleaning up her room and getting her to eat.
I think she’ll be just fine.
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Author's Note
If
you guys know anything that happened to Nicki between the ages of 15-18
please inbox me it. I dnt want to go to a next chapter knowing that i
missed something.
~'Chelle-M
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